I have been waiting since the end of January to the present to receive my tax refund…believe it or not. I’ve had a difficult time trusting the IRS in the past, and this has, it seems, put the nail in the coffin of that trust. When we took a withdrawal from my wife’s 401k, I miscalculated the amount of tax to be deducted…by a large amount. So this is a refund we could really use. And guess what? I’m not angry. Frustrated…but not angry. I’ve come such a long way.
Traffic, crazy drivers, used to really make me angry. But they don’t any longer. These are just two examples, of many, that I’ve overcome. Thanks to my Lord!!
Now, having said that, there are two things that are bothering me…not quite angry…yet. Please keep in mind, while reading this, that I am speaking from the perspective of love of God and what each of our missions should be.
I realize that many of you may disagree.
- Our Bishop of the Diocese of Charlotte, Bishop Jugis, is in the process of regressing the diocese back to the pre-Vatican II days. (I say regressing as opposed to progressing that the church has gone through for over 50 years.) The diocese has nearly 20 priest, 5 newly ordained, that were sent to a seminary that educates the seminarians in the Extraordinary Mass (Latin). I understand that the reverence for Holy Mass and especially the Eucharist is is belong more and more of an issue. But I don’t understand why the throwback to the ‘fear of God’ days. For example, I read a question and answer section for our newly ordained priests. One question was about what they considered their biggest role as a priest. Not one said that they wanted to spread the love of God. If I was asked that question, spreading the love of God would be my #1 priority. This upsets and bothers me. (All 4 of our priests at St. Matthew consistently remind us of God’s love in their homilies.)
- Now I’m close to anger. After reading about the Cardinal in Australia and the Vatican where non-marital sex has been spreading like wild fire, I shake my head and wonder why these men cannot keep their vows. And this comes after years of reporting on sexual misconduct by the clergy. We all have vows. We all take oaths. I understand that they are men…humans. But they had years of discernment and education to know how such activity can damage people.
Ephesians 4:26-27 Be angry but do not sin; do not let the sun set on your anger, and do not leave room for the devil.
I will never get to the point of having anger that would cause me sin. Those days are long gone. Certainly, like you, I pray, pray, pray everyday for everyone…especially the Catholic Church.